Half but fully conscious.

Yes, I finally found the gigantic proportions of motivation needed to post on a blog that no one reads anyway.
It is obvious I have exams coming up in a few days, why else would I post?

Life has been happening. It has been going by. Things are being nice to me, like people, buses, clothes and other vehicles. Nothing too bad has happened. College has been going a little below expectations but nothing to get too worried about.
I'm not used to this. I'm used to things being extremely fun or extremely serious. I'm used to urgency and that all too familiar feeling of I've-done-it-this-time. Complete happiness, anger and sorrow. I don't know how to react to all this monotonous stability. I'm confused.
Maybe something really bad is going to happen soon. Maybe this is all some sort of a conspiracy to catch me off guard already bored to death and then plunge me into utter suicidal depression.
Ha, you'll never get to me.